As I near my college graduation in may I reflect back on the plans I set for my life. First off, going into college I had no idea what I wanted to do as far as my major or what job I wanted to have. I knew that I was tired of living in Texas and that I wanted to go far, far away. So I made it my goal to attend college in Atlanta, GA. It was a cool city and it was far from home and family members who wanted me to fail. I prayed everyday for God to let me go to college in Atlanta because I could not stay in Texas any longer. I applied to 4 colleges in Atlanta. I decided on going to a small, private, liberal arts, women’s college near Atlanta that thankfully gave me a lot of scholarship money. By my sophomore year I had to declare a major and I had no idea what my major was going to be. I ultimately decided on Economics/Organizational Management which is basically the equivalent of a business major at other institutions. Except the school claims it’s better because you have the foundation of economics which most business majors at other schools do not have. For this major you have to take 2 intro level econ classes and 2 upper level econ classes. This was such a struggle for me. I never liked economics.
But I just forced myself to finish the major. Plus I’ve always wanted to be my own boss and own my own company so why not?
As I came into my junior year I started thinking less about college and more about life after college. So I started to contemplate what jobs I would like to have. What could I see myself doing for the rest of my life? All I knew is that I had to love my job and I had to be making a lot of money. Because I wasn’t trying to be poor! So I started to think more about more about what industry I would like to work in. With my major being business I can work in any industry because all companies need to make money! So anyways the more I thought about it I was like okay well I like music and I like fashion. So the spring semester of my junior year I got a marketing internship with a well-known music corporation. And the summer after my junior year I got a production/operations fashion internship in New York. While they were both great opportunities they made me question my purpose. I was tired of figuring things out on my own and living life my way. I needed help. I needed guidance because I was lost and tired of trying.
Around this time I found out about an amazing women’s ministry called Pinky Promise (pinkypromisemovement.com) Through this ministry I discovered that I must surrender my life to God and let him take the lead. Through all my decisions – attending college in ATL, deciding on a major, getting a music internship, getting a fashion internship – not once did I consult God and say “Lord, what do you want me to do with my life? What is my purpose?” Not once did I do this. Instead I was trying to figure it all out on my own. If I did ask God for his direction I would have definitely saved myself a lot of heartache and strife.
Now in these last few months as I prepare to finish my last semester of college and think about life after college I constantly ask the Lord for guidance. I ask His opinion on what I should do after graduation. Whether it be grad school or a job. In fact I released all my control to Him and let him figure it out. Actually, He already has it figured out. This has been difficult for me because I love to be in control of my environment and my life. I love to plan things out. But what I have learned it that God will wreck your little plans in a split second. Before you do anything you need to consult God. Either way you are going to eventually end up in His plan for your life but you can take one or two pathways: the hard way or the easy way. Don’t be like me! Don’t go the hard way. Let go and let God lead you from day 1. I promise that you will not regret it. You don’t know the end result but God already has everything already figured out. Don’t you remember what scripture says? “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” – Jeremiah 29:11 I want to encourage you to please seek God first in all you do. Newsflash: you don’t know what you’re doing. Repeat after me, “I [insert name here] do not know what I’m doing. Please God help me!” You may have desires to do certain things but if they don’t line up with God’s plans for your life guess what? They got to go! I had plans to work in music. I had plans to work in fashion. But guess what they weren’t God’s plans for my life. Also I want you to notice how I wanted to go to college ATL, I wanted a music internship and a fashion internship and look at how those three things God blessed me with them. He said okay that’s what you want that’s what you’ll get. He had to teach me a lesson I had to learn the hard way that I have no idea what I’m doing. He let me struggle until I got tired. When you finally get tired of trying to do this thing called life on your own know that God will be right there. He’s been waiting on you to seek Him. Matthew 6:33 says, “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” He will never force himself on anyone. God is a perfect gentleman. But until you can learn to surrender to God and let Him lead you there is nothing but trouble in your future. You cannot do it on your own. You have to let God lead you. I love to say this “You plan, God laughs!” It is so true!! You think you have everything all figured out but you have no idea. Today is the day. Quit trying to do this thing called life by yourself. Let the Lord take control. Continue to seek Him for guidance, daily! He’s waiting and the choice is yours.<3 TR