A while ago on instagram I saw the photo to your left that says, “Grace will take you places hustling can’t.” My immediate reaction was “AMEN!” and I reposted the photo onto my IG account. I felt so strongly about that phrase and I opened up my journal and began to write. Here is what I said....
Prior to developing my own personal relationship with God and reading the Bible for myself I was a young college sophomore. I wanted to be in all the clubs in leadership roles and hold internships with the best top companies in Atlanta.
I believed that my resume would open doors for me and get me places. I remember sending countless emails with cover letters and resumes attached to all the top fashion, music and entertainment companies around. Ninety-nine percent of those emails when into a black, dark hole never to hear a peep from those companies. Junior year came around and then before I knew it; it was the summer before my senior year. What was I going to do with my life?
Rewind to my sophomore year I attended a session hosted by Teach for America a large non-profit which believes that one day all children should have the opportunity to attain an excellent education. I sat in the session and once it was over I got her business card but I never pursued an opportunity with the organization.
Now fast forward I am about to be a senior and released into the real world. Panic mode set in! What am I going to do after graduation? I knew I wanted to do something bigger than myself something that has meaning and purpose not something done out of self-ambition.
Philippians 2:3 - "
Therefore, I thought long and hard about applying to go in their Teacher Corps where I would serve two years teaching in an underprivileged area.
You see I was fortunate enough to attend a private school from K-12 and choose to go to college among many other opportunities I had during my K-12 education. Whereas, these student I would potentially serve did not have a choice. In fact, their options were limited to non-existent. They had to take whatever was thrown their way, which wasn’t much. I felt compelled to bless others the same way I was blessed.
“I will make you into a great nation,
So I researched ,researched and researched. I read tons of articles about the organization. The good and the bad. I reviewed the application process, which was extremely long. At that time it was 1st write a letter of intent if you meet the cut then you get through to the 2nd round which is the phone interview and if you meet the cut you go to the 3rd round which is the final interview where you had to present a sample lesson and go through a one-on-one interview. I was terrified.
You see I deeply feared rejection. The organization was known for only accepting the best of the best into their program. Thousands applied and roughly 10% would get in. I didn’t like going for things if I couldn’t see that I was qualified enough. On top of that I had no teaching experience besides tutoring reading one semester on Friday afternoons and taking 5 educational classes. The application process was rigorous. How was I going to make it through every round? Nevertheless, I applied.
Going through it I believed my phone interview was the last round but I was shocked when I finally made it through to the final round. Also I was not the best at impromptu things and interviews always nerve wracked me because I don’t know what I’m going to be asked therefore I don’t feel as prepared as I would like to be. I’m very “type A.” Anyways to God’s glory I made it to the final interview. I crafted a sample lesson and prepared for my interview questions. I left the interview feeling like I gave my best effort and that God was with me from beginning to end. I cannot take credit for my performance all glory goes to Him. Because it was His will I was accepted into the program.
I wanted to share my story to say that you can scramble around all you want to and try to make things happen and set yourself up for success. You can hustle and stack up your resume with achievements and all that jazz but at the end of the day its God and God alone who opens doors for you.
I know of people who had such a heart for kids on my campus, who taught for years but did not get accepted in to the organization. I wasn’t the most qualified but it was God who made a way for me. It was God who opened the eyes of those interviewing me to say, yeah she has what it takes. It’s God who opens doors not your resume!! Never forget that.
The time I invested in sending out all those resumes my sophomore year I could have spent time in prayer asking God to lead me and show me what to apply for and what not to apply for. My trust and my hope for my future at the time was placed in my resume, campus leadership roles, and internships when it should have been placed in God. When deciding to apply, I was confident what God had for me, he had for me. Therefore, if I got TFA good, if I didn’t okay that would be disappoint but I trusted God had something better in store for me.
James 2:26 - "As the body the spirit is dead, so deeds is dead."I practiced for my interviews, I dressed the part, I researched, and I reached out to those I knew could help me. I did my part. So saying God opens doors is not an excuse to be lazy but to know that regardless of how hard you hustle at the end of the day it’s the Lord who opens that door not your human efforts. Selah.